Settled into my soul like a worm
There is a meat locker, bone and flesh
Aging with grace and smoke
Irony has its breast claw in you
Aorta pumping with tension and release
Happiness is not a fast train
It is a slow burning flame
And baby I want to release it all in one moment
But how on earth do we get to the finish line?
If we spent it all back there
I'm so scared of dying young
Never getting to say you're mine
I am just wading in the water
Finding my footing and must learn to listen
That mama soul to myself is calling and
Well, last time we promised we would listen
Makes you feel so small; a constant erosion of the soul
Quite the demon in your wormy little hole
But one has to find a way to cope
Truly the unknowing will either kill me
Or become a tether
Pain and I will sort ourselves out eventually
Somehow under all these scars
I am where I belong
There are boulevards of this beast
Laughter would bring me to my knees
The beauty of life
Lies in what you've built
Stand tall when you've earned it
Every day an inch on the path
I'll never be alone if the wind brings the rain
After you, armor will never be same
I have built a tomorrow I can live with
Ideals live in dreams
Never settling beyond simplicity
And I'll be just fine, really
When pain is an extra-curricular activity
The distant daydream of redwood love
wraps me in a hug
Footsteps crunching like tiny limbs underfoot
I don't have the patent on grief
And I only want to love at my best
Just waiting to see
If the meat locker ages with smoke and lace
